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I guess it wasn't ment to be.
Nothing ever seems to for me.
It's an endless war.
When can it finally end?
What does it really take for something like this to finally calm over?

How does everything end up in a rut?
Is it something I do?
Just tell me.
It might never happen again.

Maybe I'm better off this way.
All alone was how it used to be for me.
Back to basics.
That's how I should be.

Back to the start of everything.
Everything where it was just me.
I didn't have a care.
I was in no pain.

When you get hurt so much.
Oh, how used you become to the pain.
When it doesn't affect you.
Oh, how you wish it did.

Then the feeling comes back.
When you feel the pain again.
It is an escape.
The escape you can't even begin to replace.

Now I'm caught inbetween.
I'm in the sequence of being hurt while feeling the pain.
Wishing for the right amount to escape.
Only with my heart wishing to burst to never feel this again.