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yeah, that's what the demon does when it's trying to grip you, and when it knows you acknowledge it's presence, it tries to latch onto you. It feeds on depression, fear loathing, all that garbage emotion. It does it because it wants what you have that it lacks. And it tries to take it from you. But it only can if you give in to it. You have someone else who saw it, with you, so you are okay there. Because making you isolated is it's best trick. I have been down this road before. I wasn't much younger than you, I was 15 when it would take control of my hand while writing and drawing and write "let's be friends" I would be so cold I could see my own breath, even in a warm room. Sometimes it would smell foul to me, like rot. It took a lot of rebuking to push it away. But I did, however, it took time. It would disguise itself in other forms, even seemingly good ones. But it took a while for me I think because I never shared it with anyone. I tried to take it on alone. When I finally confided in people to help me, it went away. But it never disappears. It knows me, and I it, and it knows I won't play. But it attacks my friends now, so in a sense it is attacking me, through my loved ones. So it is my fight too, and you are not alone in this. If that is any consolation.

I hope my spirit isnt evil