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It definitely helps that I adore the actor who plays him. And he's so freakin' cute!! ^^ If I were a boy, I'd wanna be like him >_< But I'm a girl, so all I can do is watch the show and obsess over how cute he is -.- dammit.
The problem with Hanadan is that Rui is too cute. He makes everyone else seem kinda blah. Maybe it's just me XD I don't know =P Watching these shows has helped me, in a way. It takes my mind off everything, and for just an hour or two every day, I'm completely absorbed. There's no room for anything but that. I get to be a normal(-ish...it's a JAPANESE drama, after all xD) 18-year-old for a while, and I kinda enjoy it. Hmmmm...maybe something's wrong with me. Normal xD Haha.
I wonder sometimes what it would be like to have amnesia. If I woke up and forgot high school, middle school, elementary school... I think forgetting all of high school would be most troublesome. I'd remember Paz, at least =) Vaguely. But I wonder how painful it would be for me. It's hard to tell now. All that crap seems so innocuous now, even though it hurt a lot then. I guess everything kinda hurts, but I just seem to encounter more and more painful things, so that the things that happened before seem painless in comparison. I guess that's life, eh? =P
It's early/late, so it's thoughtful time. I think I'm more mature at this time of night ^_^ And a little too unfocused with my thoughts. No wonder I have such crazy dreams XD I have such a weird mind sometimes.
I'm trying to find a job. Thomas, too. I'm glad I met him ^_^ I don't know what I'd do without someone who's almost always online. Go crazy, perhaps? Someone's gotta fight my homesickness. I'd lay in bed and stare at the wall all day, otherwise. I've actually done that before. People just assumed I was sleeping. My eyes were open, and I was staring at the wall for 3 and a half hours. I wonder how I managed that without getting completely bored. I know I didn't sleep.
Ah, well, I should probably get some sleep. I'm probably waking up in 4 hours XD GO ME! lol. Tomorrow might be Riggs day. He's in town, from what I've heard. I haven't talked to him in ages, mostly because I don't sit on Facebook anymore. I'm terrible with emails, too. I'm really horrible with communications, aren't I? ^^;;; Feelings and communications and communicating feelings. I fail as a girl XD
~nepie
 nepie · Wed May 27, 2009 @ 08:47am · 0 Comments |
