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So just to clarify some things...

You might wonder who I was talking about in my poem..eheh. No one in particular actually. I like to do that. Away messages, poems..they speak of a woman but I don't necessarily mean anyone. Just to keep you thinking, it's how I do things...

She and I...we're....well...what are we? We're somewhere. We're something. I wouldn't stop her from seeing someone else, not that I could anyway. I want her to find love, I want her to be happy. I'm not a fool, I'm aware of just how much I hurt her. My only defense is I had no clue what else to do at that point (previous journals explain). At the same time I learned I can't live without her in my life somehow. I would do near anything to make her happy, as well. Sooo...yeah...that's about how it is. sweatdrop And yes I'm referring to an actual person there. I don't know if I want a relationship yet...I don't know anything right now except I have school and needs.

Sometimes when life feels complicated, you gotta simplify. In time I think everything will smooth out. In the meantime I will try to stay positive and I will be around the bar. I can't leave my family... heart