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Im sorry for what i have done
for everything you have had to go through in this past month because of me
for breaking my promise to you but cutting myself with a peice of glass and watching with excitement as the blood ran across my skin
for scaring the hell out of you when you saw my blood.
for telling you not to say anything to any one
i broke that promise and im sorry i wasnt strong enough to deal with these things responsibly
im sorry for what i have done
for pushing you to the side and not allowing you to help me in my most important problems
for running away from you when you wanted me to stay
for not taking care of myself when i got hurt and for letting myself bleed for an hour while i played basket ball
for ignoring what you were saying no asking me to do
Im sorry for what i have done
for being afriad of you at times and never telling you until now in this letter
for having you feel horrible when you shouldnt now
for jumping almost every time you touch me
for not understanding why you love me
for being a child in a 16 year old body

Im sorry lucas for everything i have done to you.. but i love you more then anything and i would run away with you in the blink of an eye. Id die a million times for you and thats the truth. I know i have put you through so much pain these last couple of months even if you dont say it.. I know you couldnt stand seeing my cuts and scars and learning that i lied to you so many times. Lucas i want to show and tell you of my life and world and i want you to see that you are my world. Lucas if asked me to marry you now id drop all my plans for the future and say yes. I love you my merf ^^