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Today's been one of those mixed days, and I'm just tired now. I've once again failed to live up to my mother's expectations of me. She never does seem to notice what I have done, just what I haven't. I wish I could be the person she seems to think I should be, and lord knows I've tried for years to live up to that... but, I just can't do it.

I feel so alone right now. I haven't felt this way in a long time, but I suppose I should have known it would come back eventually.

I know I've got friends out there that care... but... right now, you're just not enough. I don't need a friend right now, I need something more, more then the comforts that friendship brings. And, there is once again no one in my life that can fill that space.

edit: Well, it's been an hour or so... not feeling quite as upset anymore...... I'm still feeling lonely... and an unexpected hurt inside when I think about certain things. Is this what it's like to try and really get over an ex? (god I hate to even call you that, Demo. That's is such a negative term, and you're such a good friend.)