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I was just fine this morning. And all of the afternoon. Actually, I was doing well pretty far into the evening as well and then, all of a sudden... BAM! Bad mood. REALLY bad mood. Just came out of nowhere.

*Rubs his chest.* Hurts in there something bad.

Whoo... I have a lot of "fans." For whatever reason, people like me. I don't know exactly why, though. Sure, I can be a nice person at times. And sure, maybe I DO give good advice and such. But does that automatically upon my crown place the title of "Idol?" I think not.

Aaah, I've got it. Solved the problem. I know what's worng.

The thing is... I can't fix it.


Ever.




May God forgive me for what I've done. I loved you more than life itself.

If I could turn the clock back, I'd have put myself in your place. Jesus only knows how many times I've tried to join you in heaven since then. I know you're in a much better place now, but that doesn't stop me from wishing you were here. Please, please forgive me. No one could ever take your place. We'll be together again someday. Someday. I hope I just have the courage to look you in the eye and apologize for what I've done. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

You were the single greatest love of my life.