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D: Days I spend wondering who I am and what I am going to turn out to be in the future. Will I be a great person, or someone everyone forgets? This is one of my biggest fear, being forgotten.
E: Esteem is not a thing I have much of. My Self-Esteem is very low and no matter what I do, I can never get it to rise. When I do, it always goes right back down.
P: Pressure is something that accures in my every day life, as it should to you. My type of pressure will not leave me alone, it is the type that makes you want to rip your hair out every possible moment you get.
R: Regret is my best friend. He is there by my side every time I choose something. No matter what I choose, it always comes back to haunt me. Wether it is the right thing at the time or not, I always feel like I do something wrong, like I can't do anything right.
E: Emotions are common on a daily schedule. They switch so quick it almost hurts. One minutes I'd be talking to my friend, as happy as could be, and the next I'm yelling at her. After that I feel awful, but it's already too late.(I'm sorry for that.)
S: Stupidity is an on going mistake for me. I am not smart at all, in any way. I am always making the bad decisions that always come back. I never can escape from the stupid thoughts that I think and then stupid decisions that I make.
S: Silence is a part of me that only takes place when I am stressed or in pain. This happened a lot, which makes me more stressed, which leads to more silence. Everyone knows when something is wrong with me because I will be so silent. I can't help it, it's better than cussing around.
I: Impossible is my middle name. It is really, really hard to be my friend, ask any of them. I am so different, in the bad ways, that no one wants to be around me. The silence and the switched emotions people just can't take. Therefore I am often alone, the only few friends I have, I try my hardest, I really do, to hold onto them, but I always feel like I'm loosing them.
O: Odd is a simple word to use but very true. I am a really odd person in the wrong ways. This draws people away, which I hate to have happening. I watch it happen every single day though.
N: Never-Ending Story is my life all wrapped up. My life never ends, things never stop and take a short pause. One bad thing happens, then another, and another. Occasionally the small good things get put in there, which are mainly with my friends, but then another bad thing. It never stops and I am on the edge right now. I am not going to be able to take any of this much longer.
Take is my life in 'Depression'.
