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unbrokendarkness (10:30:42 AM): Hey.
shadowlulubell (10:30:51 AM): uh...
shadowlulubell (10:30:53 AM): hi
unbrokendarkness (10:31:05 AM): How are you ...?
shadowlulubell (10:31:11 AM): crying
unbrokendarkness (10:31:31 AM): >< why?
shadowlulubell (10:31:48 AM): read my profile
unbrokendarkness (10:32:55 AM): ... whats upset you
shadowlulubell (10:33:30 AM): even if i tell someone im gonna really kill someone...
shadowlulubell (10:33:35 AM): they say it all lightly
shadowlulubell (10:33:44 AM): "dont eliana! that's bad"
shadowlulubell (10:33:53 AM): like they think im playing
shadowlulubell (10:33:56 AM): but im not
shadowlulubell (10:34:09 AM): everything gets blurry when i feel like im gonna kill
shadowlulubell (10:34:34 AM): or when i think i am
shadowlulubell (10:34:44 AM): it's like the old me left
shadowlulubell (10:34:54 AM): and it's dead and gone
shadowlulubell (10:35:02 AM): i want to feel better
shadowlulubell (10:35:05 AM): i want to be better
unbrokendarkness (10:35:11 AM): I dont ... understand. *Winces*
shadowlulubell (10:35:41 AM): that's what they feel like
shadowlulubell (10:35:48 AM): i dont want to feel like a demon
unbrokendarkness (10:36:18 AM): But why do you? ... you dont have to ...
shadowlulubell (10:36:20 AM): but it's because i feel like it and act like it inside that everyone makes fun of me
shadowlulubell (10:36:37 AM): they dont stop when im not talking
unbrokendarkness (10:36:54 AM): :[ ...
shadowlulubell (10:37:03 AM): it's like they want me to die or something
unbrokendarkness (10:37:55 AM): No one has a right to tell you or feel like you should.
shadowlulubell (10:37:56 AM): and none of my friends will help me
unbrokendarkness (10:38:13 AM): then theyre not really your friends ....
shadowlulubell (10:38:17 AM): it causes me pain knowing no one will help me
shadowlulubell (10:38:31 AM): they think they can help
shadowlulubell (10:38:40 AM): but they dont know how deep in pain i am
unbrokendarkness (10:39:45 AM): You have to let them know if you want help ...
shadowlulubell (10:39:58 AM): i do
shadowlulubell (10:40:09 AM): but they wont tell anyone even if i do
unbrokendarkness (10:40:35 AM): Thats ... not right.
shadowlulubell (10:40:51 AM): they expect me to
shadowlulubell (10:40:58 AM): they think im strong
shadowlulubell (10:41:08 AM): but the strongest one has the deepest scars
unbrokendarkness (10:46:48 AM): ...
shadowlulubell (10:49:12 AM): ...
shadowlulubell (10:49:19 AM): i feel better when im not crying
shadowlulubell (10:49:28 AM): so let's get rid of this subject for awhile

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That's who i am, and the old me is dead and gone...