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jeremy is trying his hardest to get me back, and im beginning to fall back into his trap agian. i really do love him, but i cant take him back, he always takes me for granted, and flirts like crazy with other girls, slappin thier buts, n stuff like that. ill be on the phone with him, and all of a sudden hell inturrupt me to tell me how hot some girl is. i cant take it, and he assumes i will, and tells me i "need to be more secure" even though theres no way i can stand watchn him kiss on some other girl n all that. i just cant. i mean, ya, hes been there for me through my hard times, and healed me from a lot of issues ive had with my past, but i just cant take it anymore. the only way i can escape is to get a boyfriend, and fast. if i can tell him im dating someone, then hell stop, and ill be free. but i cant just date anyone, so im stuck. i mean, there are some guys that i like, but none are single, and i want someone that i actually like, not someone thats just conviently there. i dont know what to do, but i have to find someone fast, before i fall back into his trap. i dont think he actually loves me, if he did, he wouldnt hurt me so much, sometimes i feel that hes broken my heart so bad that it cant be repaired, which really scares me. but i cant say no to him, i dont know why, i can say no to other people, and kick a** when they dont take that as and answer, but when it comes to him, my spirit is gone, and i turn weak. weve dated three times, and i cant survive a fourth.
 theshadowolf · Thu Apr 23, 2009 @ 09:54pm · 0 Comments |
