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There's an indefinable feeling of pain when the person sitting next to you, who is supposed to be your friend, who happens to be your roommate, completely leaves you out. I don't know how the ******** they suppose they're getting to church tomorrow. It's my damn car.
I'm so sick of being around these people who are just going to exclude me from everything. I'm invisible again. I don't like it. I nearly just broke my toe, and all I got was a laugh, delayed by 10 seconds while I stood there and grimaced at the fact that I walked right into the chair and was in pain. Every time I walk into my bed, I get laughed at. Meanwhile, I have so many bruises on my legs that I can't wear anything that isn't far below my knees because the bruises are so disgusting-looking.
And when Thomas finally has nothing to angst over and can actually listen to what's going on in my life, he has Fame rehearsal 'til 10 because it's opening weekend -.- FML. I have no one. The people who give a s**t about me are too busy to talk, and the people who don't care are laughing while I get more and more hurt. Well, GOOD. Who needs self esteem anyway?
I can't wait to come home, if only to escape. I will hate this place so much if I'm going to be around people who aren't going to pay any attention to the fact that I do exist and have feelings.
And I am complaining about this way too much. However, seeing as the entire caring world is at Fame and/or never online, I'm left to this. Stupid Fame, taking my twin away when I need him.
I have to go pick something up. That I forgot about -.-
~nepie
 nepie · Sun Apr 19, 2009 @ 01:37am · 0 Comments |
