Today was a really strange day, I really wanted to go to sleep and never wake up! lol... we had a fire drill, and I knew it was fake because the teachers were just standing around in the halls talking.. anyway, for some strange reason I was hoping that it was a real fire, i wanted to stay in the building and burn! gonk but I was walking really slow just in case lol ( there was just something that really made me want to do it, but i really dont know what, or why..it was a drill anyway so it doesnt matter)
so, i was very disapointed... well theres always next time!lol xp and another thing thats bugging me is that every time Im really depressed,(even though im depressed every day) my one friend, (not mentioning any names)..says something to make it worse, like today she said to me that nobody cares about me, nobody wants to see me, they wouldnt care I was gone and nobody wants to hear me say anything, and then my friend told me to just shut up already...(I already believe that nodody cares about me, but she didnt have to say it, that just makes me believe it more)and another time when i was thinking the whole day about suicide, my friend comes up to me and just tells me to go jump off a building..and she was ******** serious! what am i supposed to say to that!? I seriously think that she is trying to push me over the edge(and I think its working)..and I think she knows about something else by accident, and that might be why shes doing this,cuz nobody else knows...and she always says that stuff to me when everyone else is leaving after lunch for class,but see how she feels if I actually do take her advice, but i wouldnt jump off a building, you might not die that way. lol and actually you might not even die in a fire(and fire is your friend),and there are much better ways!. xd sweatdrop uh.. yeah lol xp geez, I really go on about stupid things,dont I? rolleyes 3nodding
EDIT: My parents are also being real bitchy lately.. they keep going on and on about stupid things and dont know when to stop! do I really need that? and whats with everyone telling me to go die??(3 ppl im one day, and they told me they were serious) gonk I am not a bad person or anything, i dont even talk to people unless they start talking to me...(and im usually really nice) so whats up with that??why does every one all of a sudden want me dead? do they really hate me that much? confused but at least now if i do decide to leave, nobody will care.but i dont know if im ready.. this is what ive wanted all along, but it still doesnt make me any happier... sad
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