The idea is sound, the theory is sure. Now its time of the plunge. I don't know if this is what I should do, I don't know if this is the right way. If things don't work about between me and her I will have royalled ******** with my life and it could take years to get it back on track. Years I don't have.
But if it does work out I stand to gain so much. But most of all I stand to keep her from crying every night. That is what I want more than anything. I want her to be happy again.
She has said that she doesn't want me to sacrifice myself for her...but I will. Its my nature. I give of myself for those that are important to me and spend me own dark hours mourning the loss. Yet I never hate those that I have given up for, their joy is more important then my own. It is worth every moment of sorrow to say that I tried, that we tried.
I just hope that I can get others to see the world as I do.
Lest another sin-eat is born like this one.
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