sadly its still snowing... well, off and on...
sometimes when I wake up in the mornings I don't feel like getting up... I would rather go back to sleep and not face the world...
I feel like I am cheating on myself... I don't really know who I am... the way I act... it feels like someone else is controlling me... Everything I do feels like its forced.. to the way I feel to the way I move... I just don't feel like its me... ok, I know its me... but then it doesnt feel like it... am I making any sense? please tell me!!! Anyhow... I came to that conclusion yesturday... I just don't feel like I have found myself yet...
I have been seeing a phsychiartist but its not the same for some reason... I can tell him things but most of the stuff I right down here I don't say anything to him...
for years I have gone without having need a phsychiatrist... I still think I don't need to go... but it helps to get my mind clearer... things have been making more sense but then I find that things become more complicated...
I suppose that is way I can't seem to write any of my stories down on paper... though I have tried every single writers habit stuff there is...
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