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Attention: Lukii is my nickname, yet it has an alias of UnLukii, which determines itself through mood. Lukii is when I am happy and everything is going great; UnLukii is when life is hell and I have the intentions of hurting myself. So basically I was arguing with myself and writing at the same time.

Lukii-What's wrong now? Don't give in yet.
Unlukii-What's the point, I have reached the end.

Lukii-You can't quit! You still have hope.
Unlukii-What hope you idiot?! You/We're hated,
no one can stand the sight of us.

Lukii-That's not true, lots of people of people care for you,
you just ha-
Unlukii-Bullshit! That's nothing but lies, no one,
no one ever loved me! Not Her, not my father,
no o-

Lukii-You can't blame him for all our mistakes!
Unlukii-The pain hurts, it stabs me everyday. That's why
we're dying, you know it...........

Lukii-Cheer up, there is someone out there for us, you shouldn't
be in a rush for love.
Unlukii-I'm not looking for love just itself, I'm looking
for my purpose. I mean.....are we just to suffer
while life goes on?

Lukii-Destiny will reveal itself in due time. We shou-
Unlukii- We should quit now. Feel nothing. Care for nothing.
Not love, not compassion, not friendship.....................

Lukii-And what would that solve? You will end up killing us
thinking like that.
Unlukii- I'd rather be dead.

Lukii-Shut-up. You know there's people out there with
problems worse than our's; Way worse.
Unlukii-I know that. But for us, for me, the pain is overwhelming.

Lukii-Suck it up, you're stronger than this.
Unlukii-Am I? I've been wishing for death for the over three
months now, Yet it eludes me all the same...

Lukii-God has something for us, something for you.
Unlukii- Then why hasn't he shown it yet?! I want a
purpose yet I linger. I ruin lives , I hurt people! My
life is a curse itself.

Lukii-You're being pathetic. You have every right to live
just as much as anyone else. You/We are not ready
yet.
Unlukii-Then kill me now, I don't want to endure anymore.

Lukii-Endure longer, it can't get much worse.
Unlukii-I'm sorry, I have nothing left to live for.
No one would care if I left. It would be as if
I never existed.

Lukii-Enough! Damn it! Someone out there cares for,
whether it be love, friendship, or just plain
generosity, someone cares!
Unlukii-I want to believe you, yet I refuse.

Lukii-Then believe what you want. But you know I am
right.
Unlukii-All I know is that i want the pain to end. I knock,
on Death's dorr, eager to step in, still waiting, on
His answer.

Lukii-Damn you,..............you refuse to listen to reason.
Unlukii-You're right. Damn me, for my life has always been damned.
Damned for all eternity.