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Why does she do this? I can't take it anymore... she think i lie, she thinks i want her sympathy...well she can shove it up a ...you get it, but I don't want any of it... i just wanted her friendship. being around "friends" at school, i have changed, for the better, but she doesn't open er eyes! i just want her to see who i am inside and to know why i act how i do, but she won't listen. If it weren't for my family and friends that would miss me, i might not be here...it's for them...for her i would have died after the argument i got her angry in. I loved her that much. but not anymore...i have no good feelings... she ran out of time to forgive me... i'm not gonna go, but i will never be the same. Alexa has taken my shattered heart and diced it up more. I loved her, but she has hurt me so much, i could almost swear my heart is gone. On the computer and in the real world, i am two different people. On the computer, i'm a happy go lucky person, but in the real world, you wouldn't want to see who i am...i am the darkest person you could probably ever meet, and it's all because of the people i loved, because of people like Alexa. If you get this, i just want you to know, i tried and tried and tried to get you to forgive me. 7 times, at least, i tried to say im sorry. And i mean like a 3 page long i'm "sorry". I tried, i rewally did, but you couldn't open your eyes in time to see me falling, and i know you would have enjoyed it. I'm sorry i had to bring Nikki and Quazy into this, but i can't hanndle this on my own. i'm to weak to handle how i feel, and i never will grow strong enough. I'm sorry, and i just wanted you to know that, but i don't know, why after months you couldn't forgive me for my mistakes. i have a reason for who i am, but you didn't think of asking about it...so, now i will leave you to think about this, and if it fails, i don't care...every time i see you, my heart drops to half the amount of beats, and i want to cry, but i already used them up...

Posted by: Scylock Tue Nov 15, 2005 @ 10:41pm

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K!rschwasser
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Commented on: Sat Apr 22, 2006 @ 01:28am


	OMFG WTF ALEXA?! What do guys see in that ugly stupid b*h anyway? TELL ME? She's an a.

Commented on: Mon May 29, 2006 @ 08:52pm


	Aww! huggles I know how you feel! Exsept, the person I loved is still one of my greatest friends. I still love him but I cover it up. I do little things for him like bake him cookies and give him cake but he is still just my friend. One time I admited that I liked him and he said he felt the same for me but we disided not to go out because that would be kinda akward. We had to get use to the idea. Then, he said he didnt feel the same way anymore and I said that was fine even though it was a lie. I cried everynight for a month. Then, right before Christmas we got in a BIG fight. He called me a back stabbing friend. Then I kept trying to lie to myself, telling myself that I didnt love him anymore but I still did. I wanted with all my heart to be friends with him again. now, I have figured out the truth and I dont deniye it anymore but I kept it hidden and only tell my 4 closest friends who are my emmotional support. Love is though. But there are times when I still catch a glimps in his eyes. Im alot differnt on the computer than in real life. In real life, im a happy-go-lucky girl who wants to spend every day having fun with her friends. Online, you could call me a 1st class slut but in real life I think all sluts should die. biggrin WOW! This is LONG! Well, I hope you feel better -Mitten

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Commented on: Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 07:46pm


	I'm so sorry I wish I could help and u can always talk to me ok

Commented on: Fri Jul 21, 2006 @ 04:50am


	cry Dude, I know just how you feel. I don't even feel liked in my own home. On here, I act different. Like you I try to be sweet and caring, but I'm actually cold...I'm slowly turning emo is what my little sister thinks. My heart... went through a lot too. There was a guy I liked in school. He knew I liked him, so he pruposly built up my anxiaty, then when I confront him, he put my heart through the blender...really because my parents fight so much, I felt most at home at my shcool. Just about every one I know was my friend, 10 were best friends, and I actually felt liked...Then my parents told me that we were moving and I have to change schools. I didn't talk to them for a few days lol. She didn't even let me finish the year at only 2 more weeks of school left... I HATE the new school and everyone/thing in it. So now I don't have a safe place. I haven't fallen in love since...But the fact is, I know how you feel. ^_^

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Commented on: Thu Mar 15, 2007 @ 04:40am


	Now I know that you don't know who I am, but this makes me feel terribly bad. I wish if I met you face to face in school and stuff, I would have been by your side 24/7, constantly trying to cheer you up. Well hey, at least you have friends right? ^^

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