I used to think that everything was going to be ok. My mom used to sit around me saying when you get older your are going to be a great person. You are going to be loved and have a purpose to be here. Every single day that I live threw makes me feel like I'm loosing that. Like I wont be that person tomorrow, or in a year. I want to be something to someone, but I'm not. I am just a thirdwheel that just needs to know when to let go.
People never give me chances, and when I'm around people I don't want to be myself. I'm afraid, being myself, will make everything fall apart quicker than it already is. I am loosing friends left and right, some of the people i used to hang out with don't even talk to me anymore. I feel like I'm loosing everything.
I'm starting to not feel anything anymore. No emothions at all. The only thing I feel is...pain. The worst thing a person could feel. I am sick of crying myself to sleep everynight because my best friend has forgotten me. I am sick of pretending to be someone when I know I'm not. I am sick of everything, I don't want to be mean to everyone.
I don't want it to be like this anymore....
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Why so serious? It's because it's all I live for.
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