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How could you?
How could you not ?
I was living in a fantasy of bliss
because you thought that it would be better
not to tell me.
I never would of thought it
never could of dreamt it
Untill u told me
after
she died.
HOW CAN YOU CALL THAT "THE BEST WAY?!?!"
Regret that i didnt tcall to her enough.
Regret that i didn't eat those fresh blueberry pancakes she got up to make so early in the morning.
Regret that i didn't make it the best time of our lives on that last visit we would have.
And i realize
that it was YOUR fault
that we didn't talk
as much as we could
because her time was coming.
And it wasn't like it was sudden
or of old age,
but cancer,
WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!?!
i cannot remember how much time it was between our last talk and her last day,
but i know it was to long.
because you didn't tell me.

Grandma, Mema, im sorry.
If olny i had known,
i would have spent so much more time with you,
begged my father for one more trip down to your town in florida
because i would have wanted to make sure i had the best time with your while you were still here with us,
but i didn't know.