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i finally understand peer pressure....i mean in the sex ed class they say that u shouldnt feel obligated to do anything, but i never really understand it untill now.... when ashley and i were talking about how far we had gone with a boy, i felt like prude in her eyes!
I had let my fingers wander a bit but i never really did anything that i could call dirty, and phil and i have been going out for a month and a half.......while ashley has been fingered by orlando only two days after they started going out with each other.
The real question is if phil asked to do more or go farther, what would i say....i know im not ready for sex, but i still have alot to do before i even get close!

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Another issue on my mind is when i will finally have sex... phil and i have talked ((it was actually texting but whatever)) and he said that he wanted to have sex around christmas time, or some time afterwards....i hate to admit this but that kind of scared me!!! will i really be ready for sex by then?
Innocence is somthing that can never be regained, so once its gone ill have to live with it...i guess what im saying is that when i give myself away to boy, i want to know that he loves me and isnt in the realationship just so he can get into my pants