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I'm falling out of grace with the world/ They say I've lost my midas touch what turned to gold now turns to rust/ I'm falling out of line with all the stars

Well, here we are. Febuary, and I'm ill. Really, truely ill. I had to take Friday off because my body said STOP! For the last five weeks I have been gitting home after nine Mon-Thurs. Why? Because I am doing a favor for my friend and her mom till she gets a car. Which she should have had, but here I am. I'm making the best of it, I hope.

Before that was winter break, Lockea came home in time for the big snow that we had up here. And before that I was doing Running Start and Tempest and I have rarely slowed down.

I'm still getting good grades, but I feel so wiped, and it's time I start thinking of College. Really truely, and the SAT, and I hope I get more colleges after me. I hope I get as many offers as Lockea did. But. . . I don't have the bounce back appeal that she did, and I don't have the young and inteligent appeal that Lyra has. Truth be told, I'm the plain steady Jane. I'm not the lead in a play, I haven't traveled exstincively. If anything, what I am good for will be "I gave peachs to poor countries."

So right now I am looking at two, but I want one in Texas, close to ADV. But, there is University of Evansville which as a large study abroad program, including taking a semeter of school in England. There is also Willamette which has what looks to be a good theater program. But, so does Evansville, and I live for the World. England, Japan, Greece, Italy, they call to me to explore them. Egypt and Russia and Germany, they practicly sing. So on the coin toss between those two, I'd have to say UE, but I'm not finalizing anything yet.

So, as I hope to get better since I have a presentation tomorrow and college classes, I'm going to try not to fall out of my health again. I hate it, but people need me. But. . . I'd hate it more if they couldn't depent on me, because I am suppose to be the dependible one.

Feeling Ill Because of Late Nights
Contradictions of Dependance,

Tainth Tainted Hope
(Though she didn't want to).