I've said a lot of stupid things in my life, but now, looking back on it, they all seem insignificant in comparison. The most juvenile, pathetic thing i have ever said is "I love you". The three most terrible words that could have come out of my mouth. But that is the past, and there's nothing I can do about it. Unfortunately, I have to focus on the present.
What is right, what does that really mean? I don't know what the right thing is anymore. I'm at another point in my life, where the truth sounds like a lie, and right and wrong are one and the same. I don't know what to believe anymore. They are real, right in front of my eyes and I don't believe them. Reality feels like a dream, and I dream of reality. And while things are better than they have been in the last six years, they don't feel real. When you spend everyday living the lie, the lie becomes the truth, and the truth becomes what ever you say that it is. I vaugely remember who I was. Every so often I am reminded of who that person was. Everything is different now, everything is more complex.
And the truth be told, I could tell the truth, and no one would believe it.
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