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And nothing goes with insomnia quite like Pandemic II ^_^ Killing the world never felt so good lol. I finally figured out how to get a higher score. VIRUS.
It looks like I'm going to be staying in the dorm next year. I don't think Caitlyn is. I didn't think either of us was going to leave so soon. Now I have even more reason to not get too attached to people.
Every time the stupid apartment thing comes up, I nearly cry. Ha, that's no surprise. Crying is the only thing I know how to do, it seems. I had mostly stopped by junior year, but it came back. It's worse here. Anything can set it off, and it's the people I talk to the most who do it. Thomas gets me sometimes. He experienced what he has dubbed my "Valentine's Rage", which is far far better than me breaking down and crying for half an hour. I nearly yelled at him on AIM for perpetuating the fake commercialized holiday that is on February 14th >.> I was destined to hate it from the time I started school. Every other year, I was sick. K, 2, 4, and 6. I wasn't sick 8th grade, to my amazement. In fact, the Feb. 14th sickness evaporated when I got into high school. But by then, I was getting plenty of reasons to hate it. It didn't start out as righteous anger over the commercial idiocity, but it ended up that way. All the bad memories I have from those days are just memories. They fueled my search for a reason to hate it, a REAL reason. And I found something.
Now I'm gonna go back to forgetting about that day. Perhaps I can just ignore it.
~nepie
 nepie · Tue Feb 03, 2009 @ 06:11am · 0 Comments |
