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Someone knocked on our door last night and left fake fruit outside our door. So far, Luke, Ian, and Beth have all claimed responsibility xD Beth has the most convincing argument, since she said she left it so "Chi" and the other plushies could hang out in it. The letters "c", "h", and "i" were on the fruit XD
Beth is now my fake boyfriend XD Which means I'm her 2nd fake girlfriend XD Which is epik b/c Victoria's her number one fake girlfriend. Ian's her number one REAL girlfriend XD The fake boy is Jaques aka J (it's ALL Steph's fault -.- ) But using the power of the Alto 2 Voice, Beth is going to be my fake bf in case I need a phone call to substantiate my (or rather, Steph's) claim ^_^ But I have no picture @_@ I'm toast ^^;;;
I get the feeling I'm getting closer to sorting something out. In fact, I know what to do to sort it out. But I don't know what the thing to be sorted out is, nor do I know what would happen if I did sort it out. I keep finding these excuses to hate myself for the stupid stuff I do, and I really do some stupid stuff that I should be mad at myself for, but not for forever. But what would happen if I got over the two worst things I've ever done? That would be...i don't know...
No, I do know. Partly, anyway. I would actually let myself like someone else. And I know precisely who that someone else is.
To make this even more unappealing, now would not be an ideal time to give up this small bit of control over myself. Rawr said if I wasn't interested, she'd go for it. Somehow, I don't see them together. At all >.> But I know I'd like him if I let myself, and I already have enough problems with her.
It's way too frickin' late for me to be thinking about this at all
 nepie · Fri Jan 23, 2009 @ 10:45pm · 0 Comments |
