01/18/09
My first journal entry for the day.
Today I thought over possibilities of
going or not going to college.
If being a Doctor is what I really want.
The thought came from watching
my parents work overtime in there
2 jobs to maintain our middle class status
and partially to not go into to poverty
like the rest of United States.
So is it really worth it for me to go to school
and leave my parents like that.
No and yes I thought.
No because they gave me birth
food, and a home.
And "love".
Yes because I have no mutual
feeling of love towards
my oh-so-wonderful parents.
Somehow, I feel shallow,
like the world just rotates for
the sake of me noticing.
I've always wanted to know how it
was to die, never knew why though.
So I said to myself might as well
fake love then kill.
Being a doctor for my parent was faking love
in a way but
the life a of a doctor was never boring
so I sort of killed though.
Well that's it for today.
Only took me 3 minutes to write in this journal -_-
