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Some times I wonder if he looks at me like I look at him. Sometimes I wonder if he even notices me. Does he know that i glare at him with loving eyes? Does he know that I care? When I look at him does he know I don't see him like others do? I look at him and see a nice man and a loving one at that. Will he ever notice my love and how much it grows with in my soul and heart every second? Does he know I don't look at him and love him from whats outside, but I look and love him for whats inside? Does he know he brings enjoyment to my life? Does he even care? Would he lie to me even if he swears on his love for me? Does he notice I see the lies and the dreams within his soul? Does he know I care so much? Does he want to know? Does he even care?
I love him . . . . . . I love him . . . . . .
I look at him and smile. My heart races, my plams get sweaty, and my knees shake. It's something I have never felt before in my life. True love is what I believe it is. I cry loving happy tears with doubt.
I love him . . . . . .
Oh lord does he know? Is he lying about loving me? Does he really care or even love me for me?! Is he ashamed of me? Oh lord why does he make me love him so much? I want him, I need him. I love him. Ahh. I want to be happy, but I want him most happy. I finally decide and realize that its not all about me. I will leave him alone if he wishes. My love is not enough for him. I am done, I am dead inside.
I. .Love. .Him . . . . . .
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Names' Miranda
love you all.