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Am I a freak, a ******** up? Is there something coming out of my nose? Do I secreat a pathetic hormone? By the way spelling sucks. Do I bring about disdain in others with my unyeilding quest deeper into nothingness? Where am I even going with this, I don't know but we're gonna roll with it! I don't want enemies, I don't need enemies. I feel like I don't have much time on this earth to begin with, I want to make is as smooth a stay as possible. Rough start, and quite the the flight so far. I don't know why I value opinions so highly. Why what people think of me means so much. Can I change for each person I come across? No. I don't even think I'd really want to. Maybe.... God don't hate me! I'm not a freak, I'm just looooonely. I hope this wasn't a mistake, teading into a trap. Just a caper to make my already tiny world implode on itself. ninja Cause that'd be the end of me....

Ello, only a good man would be able to say such a thing as to stand up for what he wants. I seriously don't think Orlando had the balls to tell me to just back the ******** off, in lamens terms. I just wish I hadn't come across like a stalker... yick! Made me spaz just thinking about how horrible I seem. Anyway, I salute you sir.

I think I'm made of paper mache and wax... but if I were why do I have such an iron will of things?

I'm sorry. Just say the word and I'm gone, I'm no good with hints. I don't want to be a lepper. Body parts... just rotting, falling to pieces as a walking cadaver.

You don't have to be nice to everyone you meet. What I think my lot in life is, is to make others look good. I'm just a stepping stone, a rung in the ladder that helps someone get higher in life. For cliche, the apple at the bottom of the barrel. How would you find those nice ones if I weren't there holding them up. So my existence is sad, but my purpose is good. That's a nice way to think of it....

Is this insanity?

~Melly out.

12.51..

eek I think my heart just fell out again.