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Emo Kids Cry
I . . . might have to do the hardest thing in my life . . . give up my best friend. I know it's not her fault that we aren't able to hang out, but I'm dying here. I'm so miserable . . . and I don't want to commit suicide.


Daniella Azoth
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  • User Comments: [51] Viewing page 0 of 2 · Goto Page: 1 2 » 
    You don't want to be my friend anymore because I haven't been able to hang out with you recently?

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:45am
    We're supposed to be friends forever!

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:47am
    I'm sorry . . . but I can't take this loneliness anymore. Even my mom is getting fed up with how we are able to hang out. And my dog can tell that I'm more depressed lately.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 01:55am
    But. . .

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:03am
    But what?

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:04am
    I'm being punished for my family. I'm sorry for inconveniencing you and your mom. Sorry.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:06am
    How are you being punished? This will make everything better.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:09am
    You don't understand yet, do you? You're my only friend! My first, real friend! I used to never get invited to birthday parties when I was little. I only visited two other girls' houses more than once, but not since fifth grade. Did you know that when I was little I had troubles even communicating with people outside of my family? I have documents that explain how my child was, from the special physical education class I took. I began to think that everybody everywhere actually had a reason to hate me. I never knew what it was, but that's what I daydreamed of, different reasons for people to hate me. Whenever I saw two people talking, in my head I imagined it was about me, never in a good way. But then there's you! You helped me! I know now that at least one person doesn't hate me!

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:16am
    So I'm only useful to you . . . great . . . being used again for someone else's own purposes . . .

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:19am
    What?! That's not what I said! You helped me, you help me every time you talk to me! I found somebody to be friends with, that's you!
    When I tried out for the school play, I really wished you were there. When it was my turn to sing, nothing came out. I almost started crying. I sat down and waited until the end to take my turn, and the other people trying out kept looking at me and whispering. I completely blanked out when it was my turn again, I could barely remember happy birthday. But I still kept imagining you were there, and how you would've cheered me on.
    There are some things that you don't know about me, and that's my weakness. I can't express my weakness alot, it makes me cry. Honestly, it's hard not to cry now even though I'm just typing it. I need you Chloe! I need you!
    .

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:26am
    You don't need me at all, which is why I find it useless to be friends. I might as well just exit your life, and make everything better.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:29am
    No! Hear me, please! I'm not lying when I say I need you! Do I need to dig up more of my heart to show you?

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:31am
    No, it's useless to be friends anymore. Goodbye, Stephanie.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:33am
    Useless? My existence is useless?
    *tears, crying*
    I always knew it. I shouldn't have been kidding myself. Thank's for showing me, telling me out straight. Thank you.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:38am
    You are not useless, Miss. It's just that our friendship is useless.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:40am
    I was wrong. You all do hate me.

    Stop, please. Are you trying to hurt me? Kill me?


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:42am
    What the hell? I do not hate you, Miss.

    I am not trying to kill you, Miss.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:43am
    Well you are. And people shouldn't kill somebody they don't even hate, which is apparently what you're doing.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:45am
    How are earth am I killing you, Miss?

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:46am
    Many ways!!
    1) Lying, because eternity isn't over yet.
    2) Calling me Miss. That's not my name. That lady at the bra store even called me by my name.
    3) Breaking Shattering my wings.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:48am
    1) I am only doing this for you good, I don't want to be the burden in your life always being depressed about not being able to hang out.
    2) Would you rather I call you "Miss Stephanie"
    3) How on earth did I do that?

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:52am
    1) That doesn't bother me. Well, it bother's me in a way, I don't like you to be hurt. But its not like it annoys me.
    2) Steph.
    3) You don't remember?


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:57am
    1) Still.
    2) Okay, Stephanie
    3) No, I don't.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 02:59am
    We promised to be friends forever. Broken trust, belief, love, friendship, loyalties, and secrets break my wings. All of them being broken shatters them.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:03am
    We just aren't good friends. It would be best if we found other friends . . . maybe then would we finally be happy. I'm sure you'd be plenty happy with a new best friend.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:07am
    I don't want a different friend.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:09am
    You do, I know it. Everyone would be happier to have a new friend as long as it meant not being my friend anymore.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:10am
    No. I'm different. You're my best friend, forever.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:12am
    No . . . that's not true. I was never your friend. You of course, we mine. You were my best friend, the friend I wanted there for everything. But I was never your best friend, to you I was just someone to keep you company.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:15am
    No! You were my best friend! I made you a valentine! Remember? That's how I showed that you were my bff! And the plushies! And the mints! And the hugs! Even though it was hard for me, because at first I thought you were just toying with me, I tried as hard as I could! Nobody outside my family gave me a hug before, except for Mrs. Kellor, but I understood that. I didn't know why somebody like you, with all potential to become popular, wanted to hug me.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:20am
    I do not have the potenital, nor will I ever have the potential to become popular. You said it youself that everyone thinks I'm weird.

    But anyways, goodbye Stephanie. It was nice being your friend, I hope your life with be a happy one.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:25am
    Chet thinks you're weird. He's not everyone. Everyone else was just like, "yeah. . . well I put Jon Lee down for everything!!!".
    You do too have the potential. You have friends like Mckenzie Eisenshenk.(sp). She was the most popular person at Saint Francis.
    Don't kill me, please.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:28am
    Yeah, but Chet is considered a popular boy. He could influence people if he tried.

    MacKenzie and I aren't friends. Sure we've talked before, but we aren't friends.

    *gently puts hand on the side of your face* This isn't going to kill you. It will hurt the both of us, but time will heal the scars.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:32am
    Chet isn't popular.
    You're friends. I can tell.
    Time doesn't heal me. Ever.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:34am
    We are not friends. Honestly. How on earth do you get that message?

    This time, it will. *rubs thumb against your cheek bone* Well, bye. I will miss you so much, but I know you'll be better off.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:38am
    The way she looks at you. Like she wants to keep you to herself.

    Don't make me bite you, like Akamaru bit Kiba. We're always going to be friends.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:41am
    Say what?

    *shakes head slowly* No, I don't want to be the burden any more. I want to stop interfering with your life, I don't want to cause any more damage than I already have.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:43am
    Never mind. My 'jealous best friend' sense kicks in when I see her talking to you, because it just seems like you're just trying to get away from me.

    You don't burden me! You. . . complete me. *Does doctor evil impression with hand motion of making a heart*


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:47am
    You're jealous . . . of me talking to her. Wow . . . no one has ever been jealous of someone because of me.

    I do not complete you. If I did, you would always been happy. But you aren't.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:50am
    Oh?

    That's because I didn't know how show that I'm happy all the time. That's my new year's resolution, to look happier. I'm always happy around you, you just can't see it.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:54am
    Usually it's the other way around . . . normally I'm the one is always jealous of people . . .

    I can tell that I don't make you happy . . . I can just tell. By the way you talk and the way you look at me.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 03:57am
    That's my lonely face. I'm pretty lonely when I'm not with you; people have noticed it that aren't me. On my afternoon bus people purposefully like, leave me alone, and Paige, Becca, and that Cody kid all make a comment about how sad it is whenever I'm all alone.
    I'm working on happier faces and tones though.


    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:01am
    Why the bloody hell are you sad without me?

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:04am
    Because you're my bff. I like being with my bff. I don't have much else of a reason.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:06am
    Hm . . .

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:09am
    Friends again?

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:10am
    *looks down at the floor, and then up at you* Sure.

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:11am
    Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:12am
    *lips curve into a smile*

    comment Daniella Azoth · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:14am
    The bra lady did actually call me by my first name.

    comment x_hae · Community Member · Sat Jan 03, 2009 @ 04:23am
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