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What the hell am I going to do when I leave school? My results have fallen dramatically in pretty much everything, I'm guessing. And I can't blame it on this circumstance or that one, THIS IS MY OWN DAMN FAULT. And yet I still haven't treid to resolve myself. Maybe New years' will help. But I never keep those damn resolutions. What do I want to do? I have no idea. I'm doomed, and when I say that, I mean worse than doomed. What'll happen when I bring in another bad grade? My school 'life' will fall down the gutters. WHY do I not want to resolve any of this? WHY? I mean, if living is looking out for yourself, your physical and mental health, keeping HAPPY, then why am I refusing myself that? Why am I wasting my life? Why does it feel like life is just passing me by? This is rediculous. No matter how many questions i ask myself, I still don't get an answer. maybe my life IS falling apart already. I don't think so though, I mean I'm reasonably happy at the moment. Sort of. Oh, I don't know. I never do.
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