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im home from my misadventures.I've been home. And i love how they days and nights seem to blur together. I get up i go to work and it seems that every time i gte a goal or a piece of light, just a shard of something to look forward to and it melts away before my eyes as though it was just an illusion. It puts me life in perspective on a whole new color of light. Is there a reason why i live? or is the soul purpose on my existence only to better every one ales in life and remain nothing. If that's true and that i was never meant to find any happiness in the world around me then why haven't i the courage to end such a cruel joke? I feel the world spin around me an i realize my life IS the true comedy for the divine. if i could count the wrongs my eyes beheld witness too surely angels would fall from the heavens like flies. and for what? for all of human natures worth, and if that is is the value then i want no part of it. But see that as i try i cannot snuff my own ember an so what more is there that can be done?