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we got our christmas tree today, its really wide, it like fills up the whole living room xD

anyway, back to why I put a: Dx face for the journal.
I'm kinda depressed today...it seems like everyones mad at me.. I can't make anyone happy!!
Dx I don't know what to do......
I'm trying to ignore my bad/depressing thoughts like, will I ever get a good bf?
yeah that ones been buggin me.. >_<
*sigh* back to school tomorrow. maybe that'll help me not think about stuff...but then I'll just be depressed after school Dx
whatever >< I gotta handle this stupid depression by myself! I bother people too much! I'm annoying and complain, well, I used to a lot but I'm not gunna let myself go back to doing that! I'm different now I'm going to try and fix that problem with myself.
arrgg I dunno Dx
I shouldn't of even wrote this although I guess it helped me to get everything out...I dunno Dx
*sigh* my minds a mess again but I'm going to handle this on my own, well, as much as I can anyway.
back to the search for another bf I suppose...>>
oh wait, I'm not supposed to be searching I'm supposed to be waiting.. sorta. even allysa thinks so, so I should try and ignore everything ><
eh...I might look at my old messages to Horo later. maybe they'll help me feel better.
I'll be writing here more...maybe. so I can kinda be a psychiatrist or whatever to myself xD and just get some things outa my head that I can't just randomly tell to someone, well I guess I could but it'd be kinda weird. ^^; XD
alright. bye peoples.