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ergghh. I am completely losing it. My whole mind is completely going to shreads over everything! ok, so most of you know how much I like Rowan. well, he's getting better. He used to be afraid to get NEAR me, and today, Sanaya, him and I were standing in the library, and Naya was pulling on his ear! So, I started to, too! well, he grabbed both our arms, and I said "I stopped, ok?" and Naya's like "He just wants to hold your hand" and, Rowan rolled his eyes, and held my hand for a few seconds before I dropped it. .... this is pretty good, huh.
BUT, as luck would have it, my ex, Phaedren asked me out, again. And I went over to his house a little while ago, mostly because I wanted to be friends, but also because I wasn't sure what else I could do. Well, we were just sitting there, and he calls over to Brandon who was on the computer "Truth or Dare". so, we were sort of playing, and Brandon got him to give me a hicky(my first.)
Now weird as it is, I keep replaying that exact moment in my head, over and over, completely during class! So I space out, and I keep thinking "oh wow. Is he really that cute? I can't even remember! Is he going out today... WIth Michelle right? damnit.." and so now I am completely lost.. I don't know what to do, but I think... I think I might just try with Phaedren again. I know it didn't work before, but well. Maybe it WILL work this time? do you think?
 Bewitchedh · Thu Oct 13, 2005 @ 04:15am · 6 Comments |
