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I'm feeling alot of pain in my chest.
Not like emotional pain that you feel when someone rejects you, its a physical pain. I'm starting to think its serious. What if it is? I'm mean pain anywher near your heart is usually bad unless you know its your stomach or something. But when ever I put my fingers to where I feel the pain, I feel my heart beating. Umm I guess what I'm trying to say is if this is serious, I'll never forget any of you. And I know I havent really told any of you this (except one) unless you know I wrote it in another journal entry and just cant remember, but I'm absolutely terrified of death. I mean, if death wants me then thats it but what I'm terrified of is wat happens after I die. Thats what I'm scared of, b/c after I gave this great thought (and I'm not all that religious) what if we just die and there's nothing. Thats why I'm obsessed with the song "I will follow you into the dark" by Deathcab for Cutie. s**t! It hurts...(2 minutes went by, dead serious) ok I'm srry and dont worry I've told my parents *pain* and my dad says its indigestion. Indigestion my a**!! *pain* ok seriously, I don't want to die. Sorry you guys, bye. One: this really hurts and two: I got to take a shower (ow OW!!!) yea I was gonna say something else but th-wait ok my body is getting back at me for all these years of health. never had anything serious except the flu and that lasted a day. my first downfall was cavities XD *wince* ok and yea sorry, bye. dont worry either cause idthink *ow* it is serious. love you guys, bye sweatdrop