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xd Okay, so I pretty much left that last entry up there for a week. I dunno... mebbe it was just "Dead Leamony Week", for all you Mega Tokyo fans out there... xp

I dunno, I still think it's Monday, or Tuesday... or even Safrimodnesday. gonk I didn't even practice piano all week, and I've been slacking in orchestra (Which was NOT a good thing, lemee tell you...). My homework kind of... felt none-existant, and I'm paying for not doing it. (Got another detention. gonk ) I haven't been sleeping well... it's like the whole week was wasted. gonk My cat's death couldn't have taken that much outta me, could it? I mean, it was like when Buddy died. I loved him, I'm sad that he's gone, I miss him and I know that I will, but it's not what's running thorugh my head when I'm unable to sleep. More like They Might Be Giants, lyrics, actually. o.o;; I swear, it's some sort of secret code, thier songs... sweatdrop

... Seriously, could 'Particle Man' really be about racism, and 'You're Racist Friend' be about how to throw a good party? gonk I'm lost and confused.

Oh, I've beent rying SO so so SOOO hard to get my digital camera to work. xp It doesn't even turn on, and I JUST replaced the batteries! Yus, I used the 'special' expensive kind that's supposed to be for digital cameras. I've simply come to the conclusion that I have a crappy camera. At least my main pictures were saved to the memory card and not the camera's memory, so if in the future I get a new camera all is not lost. **All Is Not Lost**

*shrug*

Ugh, this is my 20+ something Tootsie Roll I've had in a row tonight. xp I swear, I'm addicted to them like caffein/caffinee/caffene! (poking fun at some people there >.> wink Mebe it was a bad didea asking for the largest bag one could possibly find of them... And for suck a small bag, there certainly are alot! There's only, like, 48 in there according to the Nutritional facts, but it seems like way more. gonk *eats another* Mebbe this is why I'm staying up 'till one? X.x

Oh, and I passed my twelve step program a day or two ago. It's safe to hug me, but I might suffer consequences (like catching on fire) or I might relasp. (sp?) Plus, I just flat out don't like hugs. =T But it brings this up:
scream
KAZZ, I want my battleaxe BACK! scream
And my whip while yer at it. gonk I might just go out and buy another whip, but that battleaxe is special! T~T


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  • User Comments: [8]
    JEEZE, Leamony, you're a big fat whiner! xp Suck it up! It can't be that bad!

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:01am
    How would you know!? gonk You're not me! Everyone has a line that can be crossed, but they aren't all in the same place! It may be harder for your line to be crossed, but others' could easily be stepped over without notice!

    I refuse to suck it up! (to avoid being hit) Not that I have anything to suck up... >.>;;

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:17am
    But you're a strong person, Leams! You've always taken everything in stride... for as long as I've known you! What could possibly get you down enough for your health to become visibly failing? confused For you to lose sleep and not even know why?

    You must be hiding something.

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:23am
    If there is something that I am hiding, even I don't know.

    Sure, I've taken most everything in stride, but over time things build up. It's like... a glass. And slowly over the days, water drips into it, filling it up, bit by bit. Some drops are larger than others, some much, much smaller. But in the end, the cup becomes too full, and spills over. I don't want to know what happens when I spill. gonk But I kinda feel like it's becoming too full, and the holes I poked in the glass to let some water out have been stopped up by grime, or something.

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:29am
    Oh, sure, quote an anime. xp But, meh, if the shoe fits...

    Leams, if you're saying you've begun to run out of ways to deal with stress, find a friend. You can't spend your days talking to yourself. You'll only get the opinions in your mind and nothing else, and if it gets to cloudy in there you won't even be able to do that anymore. You need someone else who's able to see things clear enough, and that is able to contribute different ideas. You know what I'm saying? Of course you do. You're me.

    Hop to it, there's a phone right there.

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:34am
    But WHO to talk to?! gonk Nobody knows me well enough that I can actually spill my guts to them, and nobody wants to listen to someone blubber over little things. Sure, there's always **Friend #1**, but even she I'm not sure of... Yeah, I trust her with secrets and crap, but would she be able to help?

    No offence to my Gaia friends. sweatdrop

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:37am
    You'd never know untill you called her.

    But Leams, sit and think about it, too, what would you say? There's really not much you have to complain about. Cat died, yeah. School's a pain. Yeap. Room's a mess. Meh. Your family loves you. How is that even a problem?! You're just over-reacting over nothing.

    So what if you were unable to help So-And-So? They didn't want your help in the first place. (That's what it's about, huh? blaugh ) And besides, you didn't know enough of what was going on to help. But if you simply told **Friend #1** they'd have an idea of what was going on in your life, however small it may be, and can at least try to help you. With whatever it is. gonk Arg, general-ness.

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:41am
    But I'm simply not confident enough. xp And it's getting late, she'd get in trouble if I called her.

    I guess I could set some time aside tomorrow, but.. >.> I dun wanna.

    'Sides, I gotta go to sleep now. xd To anyone that was reading all this: it's just my way of dealing with things, and no matter what you do or say you can't change any of my problems, I'm very sory to say.

    comment Leamony · Community Member · Sat Nov 13, 2004 @ 06:46am
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