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In between about a half an hour ago and the time when I posted my last entry...
I guess...
I had a psychotic episode.
I remember talking to Austin on gaia.
Then, I remember nothing for an hour and a half.
Then, I remember laying the wrong way on my bed(head at the foot of the bed, feet at the head), and not knowing why, so switching back to the regular way, reaching to pick up my laptop off the floor, and logging back on to here to find a message from Austin. Apparently we had this whole conversation, which mainly consisted of me saying, over and over and over 'What do I do?'

And I've scared the freaking s**t out of myself, because.... I don't remember that. But I've posted it everywhere- on the messages, on my other journal here, on a chatroom I go to, on the little 'Status' thing on My Gaia, everywhere. And to me, I sounded like I was going insane- clinically insane.

I...... I'm not crazy. I'm not, I'm not, I'm not. I don't know what the hell happened.... but I'm not crazy. I can't be.