Well I am alive. My friend KK, the one from Grand Prarie, moved back here to Rocky sometime around May and now she goes to West Central. My new teacher this year is absolutely HORRID! Madame Ferjani... the worst teaher ever. No joke. 3 kids from my used to be tight kint French class are now gone... all thanks to Ferjani of course. She came here from somewhere in the middel east and she is just not adapting well at all. She doesn't believe in democracy. She hates our school textbooks. She hates my class, even buritto! According to her she is incredibly qualified to teach us and we should be grateful. HAHA thats not gonna happen lady! Sure, I do respect my teachers and all that but just not her. Everyones grades are going down, mine included, and it's her fault for not teaching well. In the past my teachers have always been concerned about our learning, so they made sure that we did actually learn. Man, I miss my old teachers. So far this school year is pretty much sucking. I was hoping we could cause Ferjani to quit and leave the country but no... she isn't giving up. Wish she would though. Her rotted, wrinkley face always looks all puffy as if she's been crying at least one point of the day. My favourite classes are anything that doesn't consist of the FouFou (Ferjani) being the teacher. However, she likes me!! I am one of her like 3 favourite students... I swear. According to her I am the smart one XP. But I don't want to fill this entry with s**t like her so I'll move on to the most important person in my world. Burrito.
He is so in love right now. Not with me though. With Belle (Isabelle). He's had a crush on her all of grade 5 and her fell in love with her when they went on the China trip. I'm not jealous of her. Really. I want Burrito to be happy. And he's happy. Nothing could possibly be wrong. Sure, I want to make him happy, but he already is happy so that's good enough for me. Belle has dated so many guys since grade 5. But this relationship with Burrito has been her longest and I actually do think that they have something special together. Burrito told me today that they've been going out for 7 months and 23 days so far. He has her name ingraved on the back of his new iPod and her name is written all over his binders. He's never loved anyone this much. I'm so happy that he has everything right now. He is so amazing and I just love him. When I look at him sometimes it hurts to know that I can't have him but it'd kill me to see him hurting. Aslong as he's happy it's all good. On a different side note. Burrito has started this new band, that even after 3 months doesn't have a name lol. For a lead female singer, the band held auditions and I WON! I sang Love Story by Taylor Swift. But I'd rather not sing infront of the whole school, I just wanted to audition lol oh well.
Now I'm going to get on to why I feel so... in way too over my head.
Of course Burrito is affecting me but... it's really just everything. When Burrito and Belle started going out... maybe a month later Belle was seen kissing someone else, Collin I think hiss name was. Anyway Burrito was so sad and they broke up. Burrito wasn't mad at the fact she kissed someone else, he was devestated that they broke up. Because I hate seeing him so down, I was talking to him on facebook the day after the breakup and I was telling him to try to get her back. She was actually really sad and she wanted to get back with Burrito but she was afraid that he would be mad so I told Burrito to tell her that he still loves her. And sure enough they got back together the next day. Over the summer Belle went to Nicaragua and Burrito missed her deeply. I didn't spend barely any time with him over the summer because he was still dating and it would probably be awkward because he knows that I still loved him. And then when school started, Belle was in grade 9 and Burrito was in grade 8, she went to highschool and he was in his last year at Pioneer, same as me. Their relationship is really strong and I'm happy for them. Burrito practically spends all his time with her. I'm still not jealous but I do wish that I was a good friend of Belle so that we could all hang out together. But the thing is... lately I've just been faking a lot of smiles and I'm not very enthused about anything. I want Burrito! I know he's not mine. I can deal. But when I'm not with him, I want to be and thats all I can think about. I need him. I love him. And that's why I want him to be happy but I've just been so lonely... I spend a lot of time with KK since she moved back but I really just want to be with Burrito. KK has been worried about me and she... I dunno I guess she wants me to change my focus. Believe me, I want to. But I can't. I have no control what so ever in regards to this. And that sucks. I want to be with him more than ever. But I have to cope with the fact that I'm not with him. Urrgh but that is so hard. Not to mention the added burden of FouFou and her stresses that she causes. Oh, and now... about a month ago on facebook I saw somebody from the highschool's status and seems like he made-out with Belle. I haven't told Burrito because it would just sound so bad comming from me. I don't want him hurt... really I don't want her to hurt him. And maybe it was all just a misunderstanding and she is completely faithful. Well I don't know anything I guess. Now in class... our once upon a time Frech class is literaly falling to pieces thanks to Sarah. She dated Burrito but dumped him for Logan. She hates Logan but she's dating him again and... I don't know she just makes such a big deal and complains about everything. Urgh. She acts so fake and everyone she comes into contact with acts fake alongside her. Drives me insane. I don't like hanging out with her. And so lately I've been hanging out with Kastyn another girl in my class who isn't a Sarah follower. And just yesterday walking home from school she told me that someone told her that she saw Belle making out with someother guy and... wow... how am I supposed to handle everything going on???
I have no clue.
