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i dont deserve to live
i've given all i have to give
but its jus not enuff
i wanna be bold and i wanna be tuff
but this i jus cant take
if this is a nghtmare,WAKE!
this crazy pain going on inside
i said i was fine,i lied.
why cant anyone help me
i'd pay anything to be free
but it never even works
and that crazy pain still lurks
in my heart and in my soul
its tearing me apart;so many wholes
i remember when it first came
but now its so familiar that i gave it a name
my crazy pain,cuz it makes me that way
it keeps coming back each and every day
oh,why won't jus go it leave
its taking something from me,what grief
im not going throught this anymore
my soul is terrible,all blood and gore
i found a way to cease
this thing, leech disease
but noone will like it
so many ppl, this solution will slit
it only involves me
so lets see
ive jus killed myself right
becuz of that crazy pain fight
but now no pain i can feel
serenity all around me,like a beautiful peel
but now i see how that pain came
i can't rid myself of its name
its name is you
you left and i didn't know what to do
that pain inside me was love stilll a burning
it was pleading for you,simply yearning
yearning to be loved once again
but not any of the other men
it wants to be in your presence right now
but i stopped my heart, so how?
do i know who u are anymore?
God! I cant do this, i feel like a whore!
oh no,that pain is back.
i can feel it and thats a fact
but how?
i killed myself jus now....
my heart works!
and in it my first love lurks
just now i awake from my sleep
my dream scared me,and now i weep
in my dream you left me,and i had crazy pain
i was beginning to think i'd go insane
but you're with me now,so im fine
will u always be there,will you always be mine?
and in a way my dream was true
i don't klnow what i'd do without you