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Ugh. kkkk. get this straight, im going to be completely honest. no feelings will be spared.

im in love.

yeah, its true. with none other then lord of all chickens. sure, he may not know. or he may not except it...but i do love him. maybe he thinks im crazy, but why not just get it out there...

So now you know.

Theres another thing...

im going through alot. im finding out my whole childhood was a lie. that i wasnt completely myself...if that makes anysince...i couldnt remember any of it, so my brain made another story...what i believed was going on was only what i wanted to know...or except. really my childhood was ********. i was twigish for about 3 years...i was also suicidle and my "friends" didnt really exsict. i thought that my friends were lacy and crystal. but they were all in my imagination.

i think im going insain. i write songs. most of the time they reflect me completely. heres a few of my lyrics from last month...

Now I can feel the needle break, into my veins. They try to tell me I'm insane, but they made me that way. So come and take me away, I feel like dying, erasing all of these memories... It's the only thing that keeps me alive. It keeps me away from all of your mother ******** lies!

I feel my nails rip my flesh; I feel I've gone insane. I never wanted to hurt you, but you made me this way. So now I know I'm crazy, I feel there's no more pain. These voices call out to me, they're screaming out my name.



so you see my point. im not insain. i cant be. so live. love. laugh.
enjoy your life. ♥