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New love is such a wonderful thing.... it brings you out of the deep recesses of your mind and makes you realize that there is someone out there who cares.... and after taking a huge emotional blow.... it's the best cure..... and yet..... sometimes you find yourself comparing the actions of your new love to the old actions you loved of your old..... and things get depressing farther into the relationship......
Now I walk down a lonely road where only fate knows where I'm going.....and there is no one beside me... it is dark and lonely....though there are many people around me...influencing my movements, telling me what to do with my life.... and I hate it all....
If you've ever had a best friend date your ex..... you'll know how painful it can be.. knowing that after such a short time....you realize that he/she never truly loved you......things just.....don't really matter much anymore....even after you find someone who cares for you..... you always cling to that last memory of you and your ex together.... that it was all a lie.....things aren't like they are in the Fairy Tales.... if they were.... I'd be happy...not completely heart broken...
About now I'm thinking that I should just stop dating completely.....so I won't break anyone's heart with my shallow feelings... so I don't drag the new love down the road of depression.....so HE can be happy.... so I won't cause anyone else pain.....
Nothing seems to help anymore.....
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Comment if you have somehow found a solution to the endless turmoil that I am feeling within my heart.... like my heart is being ripped out piece by piece....tainted by malice and hatred....sadness and loneliness... and put back together.......things just don't work out for me.....