To loose. To loose something most dear to you. It gives the worst feeling possible. Your stomach can't sit straight. Your brain gets mystified, addlepated, confusional, with what you want to say but it comes out completely wrong. Your fingers turn numb, your hands have a needle sensuous touch. Your feet begin to feel fragmented like they no longer belong. Your knees want to give. The mouth begins to go dry like sand papper, with your tongue being shaved away. They say you can only break so much before you're unfixable. I think I can only go as far as I have gone before. This feeling shouldn't be new, but it feels so much worst knowning its on a line line. I can't assume, but the feeling is so terrible.
That fortune cookie was right "A new impact on your personal life will take place; Hope for the best." I usally don't believe in cookies with paper in them but, it's been right two times in a row. What do I make of that..