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I'm so sick of this. Why do these things never work out?!

What things?

You know what things! Girls. Relationships. Everything falls apart the minute I try to make something out of them.

And you're not happy about that.

No. NO, I'm not. Doy.

But that's what you keep asking me for.

What?

You said you'd give your everything over to me, kid. Remember? You want me to take your life by the reigns and that's what I'm doing.

This isn't what happened before.

Exactly. I'm taking over.

Taking over?

Well, only if you want me to.

...Yeah. I guess I do.

I promise I'll take care of ya. You know that.

Yeah, yeah I do. But God, it's just so flipping frustrating ya know? I want this so bad! And she's such a great girl! And You led me on! Why did you get my hopes up and then drop me like that?! Was that you? Why?

YOU got your own hopes up. You shouldn't get all riled out so quickly. You're desperate, and that's why you got excited. Take it easy, alright?

Take it easy. TAKE IT EASY. Ha! Garrett and Sawade are together. WTF. Dude, where does he get off getting a girl like her and I'm left with nobody? I went a YEAR AND A HALF without really liking a girl, and now I find one that I know I really like, and it totally doesn't work out.

Haha, yeah.

What?! Did you just LAUGH at me?!

Look, you ASKED for this. You want me to use you, you said that. Did you ever stop and think that what I have planned for you isn't what you think you want? Did you ever stop to think that by giving youself to me that your own desires wouldn't be fulfilled? Or is that exactly what you thought would be fulfilled?

...

My desire for you is different than your desire for yourself. I have other plans in mind for you and this girl. Grow up and accept it.

...Right. Yeah, yeah right. Just keep waiting, right? I'm sick of it.

And as for Garrett and Sarah, they're a different thread. You don't worry about them or try to compare yourself with him. Ok?

...

Ok?

Yeah.

Alright.

I hate You sometimes.

I know.

I'm sorry.

I know.

Thanks.

Yeah, you're welcome.