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I am so totally Pissed right now. I just got back from marching band and this was the worst day in the history of my marching career (?) for more than one reason. First off, my best friend (And I kinda have a crush on him, which sucks b/c I have a boyfriend) Matt Vasil just recently moved away, and I miss him alot. I mean, I love this kid! He was also in marching band, and he had a really important part in the show: He carried a monolith. Now, If we're missing a monolith carrier, The whole show is ruined. So Mr. Wardeska (our band director) asked who was near Matt when he picked up his monolith; I raised my hand. I'm two (football) yards away from Matt and he passes right in front of me. He made us run the show before he could choose someone. Guess who he picked? Allison Whal. She's a bitchy flute that bosses everyone around. She's two yard lines away from me, in the OPPOSITE DIRECTION!!! That makes no sense. I tried asking Mr McGrew (another band teacher) about it, by saying
"Allison Whal is taking Matt's monolith, right?"
"Yes."
"That's strange, they pass right in front of me-"
"Well, let's hope they don't hit you."
Allison Whal, the one flute in my section who I absolutely dispise, has taken the one and only part that I've wanted and no one seems to notice. It seems like I'm invisibe to these people! It makes me mad, I mean, I've been trying SO hard to do the best that I can, and what do I get? Yelling to do better. I'M DOING THE BEST I ******** CAN, FOR JASHIN'S SAKE!!!!!! I want to quit band next year, but that's the only way I have a slim chance to see Matt again... Oh! And I lost my contact while I was marching today! see? I had a great afternoon today!

To make matters worse, I want to break up with my boyfriend (his birthday is in two days!) but yet, I don't... I'm not sure what to do...
plus, my social life is going down the tubes... I can't hang out my with my anime friends anymore... I chemically burned my forehead with hydrogen peroxide my face ******** hurts all the time and it's covered with annoying scabs that are going to scar, so my face is forever messed up... My grades are slipping, I'm getting C's in my honors classes... and I keep getting reminders of the fact that Matt is gone. the only time I look forward to in ther day is 8:00, when I get to go home and cry in my bedroom.


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Okay, I'll try one...



You don't know how much I miss you, Matt...