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i want to die. my friends are abandoning me. I'm becoming more hideous by the day. I'm turning into a bitter old woman. All i have now is pets, computer, books and food. I want to die. But I don't want to leave Nick or Owen. Well....maybe I dont want to die. I just want to leave. Leave town. Leave the Valley. Leave the province. Go visit Owen. If Owen doesnt want me I have Nick. If Nick doesn't want me I always have Joe. Family and school are now unimportant. Both are merely hinderances thought to build character. A psychotic rant.....Thats what this is. I'm merely experiences the lows of some milder form of bipolarity. adolescence maybe? possibly. But I dont notice any of my peers going on psychotic tirades on the computer. Hm.... Ponderance, ponderance.