I am alone. Again. I have little contact with my boyfriend. All i can do is send letters now and again. The silence drives me to the brink of insanity at times, but i shove it aside and continue to live on each day. He made me feel safer than i have ever felt before in my life. He protected me from bullies. He loved me for being a freak and a psycho. I loved him for being crazy at times but still being sensitive and caring. We were a match thrown together by fate. I brought out the good in him, i got rid of his anger and hatred and made him love again.He made me more open, he got rid of my shyness and made me feel whole again.
I have to wait. And every six weeks or so i get to see him. The next time i get to see him is at Thanksgiving. Which is in 11 days.
I feel so alone right now. Even though i have friends who i talk to everyday, but yet i still feel so alone.
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See my hands
Conducting a nightmare
The symphony of a tragedy
So great it devours me
These notes are just fantasy
Peretual dream won't let go of me
I struggle to live
without the notion of a sound
that could open my mind
Conducting a nightmare
The symphony of a tragedy
So great it devours me
These notes are just fantasy
Peretual dream won't let go of me
I struggle to live
without the notion of a sound
that could open my mind