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There's just so much going on right now. Pah, I don't know waht to think of it.

First is this Friday I'm leaving for Las Vegas to go to my brother's wedding. I'm not sure what I think about it, really. I guess its their business but I can't help but to think this is a bad idea. I mean, they only have two weeks of RL experience with eachother.

Second is that my dad has been diagnosed with colon cancer. Its times like these that I really wanna go home and just spend some time with him. Even though he says its a slow growing cancer that'll take like 10 years to mature, its times like this that I realize how much I've taken parents for granted, and I feel really guilty for it.

Third is school. Most of my classes are fine, exept one. Data Structures. *shudder* I really don't get the programming in that class. I feel so lost and I really don't know where to get started. It doesn't help that the prereq for the class doesn't cover what Dr. Baas wants us to do, so I feel like I'm having to learn a whole new programming language and having to do advanced things with it, all on my own. It doesn't help that nobody in the class seems to want to work together, which is a shame because I could really use someone to help me put my thoughts together. Then maybe I would have the proverbial pad from which to launch myself with.

Lastly is just life. I dunno. I just feel really bad and lonely lately. I'm watching people get on with life and I really don't feel like I have a life to live. Its just all school and I'm having problems with that. Its like I'm slowly circling the drain of life and I don't know what will pull me out.