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yay! they are getting better!i can only feel the pain if i acciedently bang them on a desk or something..bang as in a slightly hard tap..but not really hard...
in gym..i was crying...because i hated it when people always yelled at me! we were playing vollyball! i like to play with a beachball cause it's easier..but that wasnt the point! this one girl was like "your rasict! cause you hate black people! and chinesse shoulnt be in america!cause they are so stupid people think they are smart!and that they are so cool cause they make almost everything in the us!"and i told her i didnt say i was rtasist! i didnt say i hated blacks people! i didnt say anything! she said it when i was serving the ball and it almost hit my glasses which would prettyt much make me wanna kill her! i hate sports is all i'm going to say! i hate every sport that includes a ball! or any amount of balls!why? well i wasnt like this when i didnt need glasses! when i didnt have glasses i could see fine and didnt have to worry about breaking something! and ever since i got hit in the face with a football on the first day i got my glasses i was so causoius and hated sports even more!i wanted to throw myself out of school! because everybody..almost everybody sees me as this one "smart" chinesse girl who keeps to herself unless it's to her friends! and a bully! i dont get the bully part! i mind myself unless i get mad! when i am mad...i will do some very very serious pyshical pain! i evenb broke a guy's finger when her wouldnt stop poking me! yes i warned him!after i said that to her she was said "well if your so smart why cant you serve a ball correctly?maybe it's because i'm smarter than you!"and i was so mad! i told her i never said i was msarter than her! i couldnt serve cause in the sixth grade was the first time i played vollyball!and they only played vollyball for like a week so i didnt learn much! now that i'm in the seventh she only taught us to constintrasint on the ball! i do but i cant when someone is talking to me! everybody in my gym class knows i cant play vollyball well! and i missed the ball on mu serve they made fun of me bvy saying you suck and go back to preschool by playing with an invisable ball! i just couldnt hold it in this time..when i say this time..it means when i serve and miss the ball i always feel like i'm gonna cry! but i hold it in! but today..i just couldnt! i have people picking on me and making fun of me! and bullying me! yes i went to the principal! yes he helped! but they wont stop! moree and more people keep coming and replacing them! when i cry they feel sorry! when i'm just normal and everything! they always think i'm a suck up and a stupid girl! yes i can curse..i have cussed out masny people in three different languages! but that is only to those who cross the line!..okay..end of entry..i can barely even stand writying it..and typing it actually made me feel better...