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*sigh* wow I'm reaaaaaally freakin screwed up right now.
but to keep myself from going crazy I've been trying to relax and not concentrate on things much for now.
and I've also been thinking about a certain day to keep myself happy, even if it never happens again for the rest of my life, I guess I can concentrate on it, and on daydreams and actual dreams I've had once in a while.
I love just sitting for an hour when I wake up in a daydream, never wanting to leave it. I wish I never had to. at least things arent cruddy in daydreams. but now I'm probably going to try and absorb myself in my human life for now sadly, I'm probably going to be goth-ish for a while cause of the way I feel right now because of recent events. I'll probably be pondering death and souls and just random stuff for a while, going back into the marionette state I suppose. good bye to normal me for a while everyone! so yeah I'm going to try and ignore things and be like a mindless zombie with everything but school and drawing in hopes what the faerie oracle told me helps me out of this mess...
yay only two people know what I'm mumbling about! ^^;
I feel freakin horrible I'm just going to go
pretend I'm sleeping in a coffin when I go to bed... -____-;;;;;;;;;;
see ya world! I hope you like the new emo goth-y me for a while!