I ran far away, with tears streaming from my eyes. I ran away, far into the depths of the forest. And I fell; down into the pits that had no meaning whatsoever. I was scared; afraid of what would happen to me now. I cried and I cried; screaming at God yet again. He did not give me any strength. I felt worthless. My body was torn; and even more than that; I was lost yet again. Even in my past; I was playing the same life all over again. Is this my punishment for not protecting them. God!!! I loved them, my family, they were my friends, my supporters. I tried, b… but I can’t live without them. I’m blind, but still I see by heart. In which I barely have.
Chapter 6
Beginning of True Power
Everything has been taken from me and still I can act so happy; still have a huge smile on my face. And you just sit up there; pointing and laughing at me. Pretending that I do not exist. You have not given me a good enough sign for me to move on. I don’t want to be here in this time. There are too many hurtful memories. Seeing them again only brings tears to my eyes. And I do not wish to feel this way any longer. I don’t want to be around them anymore. It’s breaking me. The thorns on my heart are beginning to dig in way deeper than before. My heart is weakening and my soul is disappearing. I can still feel the warmth of that staff in my hand as if I were still holding it. I wish everything would stop. Time would end; for I to die and live among the many souls that have been lost. I have looked everywhere that I could possibly look and in return I have found nothing; but more thorns to add to my broken, unseen heart. For now I shall be finished and finally rest or go where no other girl has been. A tradegy will happen soon; like a bomb dropping from the sky. I can feel a strange power building up inside of me; a burst of pain shot through my body and made me scream. My covered by ears to block out the screeching sounds that were echoing in my ears. My heart felt as if it was about to burst. Cuts and bruises began to appear on my skin. My screams were drowning me. I was floating in the air again. My eyes begin to change again, and my hair grew even longer than before. I rose high above the ground and I drifted slowly across and in the middle of the sea. Suddenly I was dropped, I fell in the middle. I could feel the water rush into my body. Through my mouth and my ears. They were bursting with pain. I could not hold on any longer. I felt my body go numb, I could not breathe any longer. I was drowning, dying, losing everything that I had worked so hard for. My life was disappearing from my very eyes. Soon I would be lifeless; like before when the day was dark, only then I was fully alive. So now I was in the middle of sea. My eyelids were falling, I was drifting off into another dimension. Into a deep sleep, from where I would never wake up. Suddenly my eyes burst open; and there it was. Someone was here to rescure me. I awoke from my thoughts; and noticed my surroundings. The water started choking me. Everything went black. I felt it wrap its strong arms around my waist and pulled me out of the water. The sound died down; and again it was silent.
To be contiuned
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