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you got to learn how to open more to people like me mrgreen its nice to give a hug once in a while rofl *hugs*

[b][size=9][i][color=lightskyblue].... Well i must say that you're damn lucky. i tried to remove you from my friend's list, but due to gaia f*cking up i couldn't. then i accidently clicked on the wrong journal, which was yours. damn lucky. You don't understand me? well i'm not surprised. but i must say that it's truly not anyone's fault but your own. i don't think we need to go over what we went through before--The non-listening problem that you've had. You feel horrible? that's how i felt every single time when you ignored me when i wanted you to listen, and it hurt the most yesterday. it made me lose hope in our friendship SO MUCH--it hurt like hell. but i didn't think you'd listen; can u really blame me? You strove so hard? when? because i have no idea when. I know that if you had then we both wouldn't feel so horrible. perhaps you tricked yourself into thinking you did because knowing you'd done something wrong was too horrible to bear? i don't know your reasons, but i know that you weren't completely "true." You want to hide from it. . . . as much as i don't want to sound empathetic, i'm going to tell you not to. what's there to hide from? its' all on the table. but i'm partially proud of you because you're finally showing that maybe you do care. i don't feel so uneeded. but that doesn't erase everything. regardless of how brave a face you put on it doesn't matter--not until this is handled. I don't think this is enough to break up our friendship forever, but it was enough to really hurt me and make me think. a part of me keeps saying "forgive you, forgive you--stop being so childish!" but another part of me says "you don't want to waste your time if someone is going to continue not appreciating you and hurting you." You mean a lot to me, and you're one of the last people that i'd want to lose. but i need you to learn from this if you truly want to become friends again. if you don't, then i understand. but i know that we'd both be complete fools if we let that happen, because we're better than that and hopefully smarter than that. Respond to this however you wish--if you respond at all. just know that nothing is enough to break this friendship, regardless of how much it hurts. . . . . but that doesn't mean it has to hurt. Goodday.[/color][/i][/size][/b]