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as a result of my crappy day i wrote this before i could sleep


my lifes going nowhere, nowhere real fast
wish i could turn back time, i wanna live in the past
at least then i was happy, not worrying about love
i need a sign that theres meaning here, a sign from above.

no i didnt think you would come through, no matter how i prayed
doing everything myself, my toil never repaid
now i lay here broken, shattered by sorrow
but if it wasnt for her, i dont think id see another tomorrow

these feelings inside, they hurt but there good
i wish i could feel content, like i know i should
but content is a feeling, a feeling i cant quite get
until i can be yours someday, but i guess its not time yet

waiting patiently, as time flies by
sometimes i wonder, i ask myself why
why do i wait for that predictable answer
its becasue of love, it grows in me like a cancer

i stick around hoping that the answer will someday be yes
so until then i try all i can to impress
but in reality all my efforts are in vain
that answer will never come, so my heart suffers with this pain

i try to be accept it each and everyday
but that facade, like a house of cards, will always fall away
revealing the true me, and all my pain and sadness
i fear my heartache will someday drive me into utter madness

so untill the day comes, when my fate becomes real
i will wait by your side, never changing how i feel
waiting and wondering until the end of days
even if i dont believe, all i can do is sit hear and pray...