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I'm suffering, but I don't know from what. All I know is that I hurt everyday, I feel so much pain, so much agony, so much......sorrow. I just want to lay down and curl up into a ball. Sometimes I think I'm suffering from depression, but that can't be it, I'm a very happy person, or am I?? My world is nothingness. No one is there but me, myself, and I....I live in a world of torment. So much sadness. It's empty and I'm all alone...in the dark...just sitting there. I feel empty, lost, confused......scared.

My life is a black hole and it has swallowed me up and I can't get out. There is no latter, no exit, no escape. I just have to keep walking further into the darkness and wait until someone comes and gets me......that is if anyone is willing.

The door closes
past
present
future
eyes flashing
breathing
gasping
life
death
races
sexist
religious
afraid
brave
weak
frail
strong
empowered
foolish
wise
need not follow
no more
cause the path...
is buried
the light is gone...
and darkness has taken over.